**Disclaimer** If you know me in my 'real' life and stumble across this blog- please know that I write here for healing, and to feel close to my Noah, and close to my grief. At times these letters may seem sad, angry, and at times, crazy. Please don't worry about me- this is how I help myself heal. If you have questions, just ask- if you know me well at all, you know that I love talking about my Noah.

Sunday, November 2, 2008


Hi Monkey Man,

Well.. Mummy and Daddy just got back from Cuba. We had a good time! The first few days were really sunny.. but the rest of the days were dull and rainy. It didn't matter much though, because Mummy and Daddy had each other to keep them company. I just am not as tanned as I wish I was!!

It was nice to get away from everything in Canada... nice to be around people who don't look at us with that 'pity face' and try to make us feel better... Nice to sort of take a break from this crazy year... but hard to come back to it...urgh... if only we could go to Cuba once a month!

We miss you so much baby boy. others have stopped talking about you, and asking about you.. but don't worry ... we never will. You are on Mummy and Daddy's heart and mind every single day. people say it gets easier.. but I think it just gets more regular to be here with out you... not any easier.. just that we are more used to it. How can it get easier when there is no way you can ever come back to us.. it can't.

Well baby bear.. we love you more than anything.

Mummy and Daddy