**Disclaimer** If you know me in my 'real' life and stumble across this blog- please know that I write here for healing, and to feel close to my Noah, and close to my grief. At times these letters may seem sad, angry, and at times, crazy. Please don't worry about me- this is how I help myself heal. If you have questions, just ask- if you know me well at all, you know that I love talking about my Noah.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Long time

Hi Monkey,
I'm sorry it's been so long since I've written to you,.. alot has happened!
On Saturday, Mummy and Daddy had about 30 people over to the house, and they all went to see your tree. Jamie- you know, the one who put water on your face before you went to heaven, he spoke a bit, and then Mummy and Daddy said stuff.
It was ncie to have everyone here.
I also don't think I told you that Poppy developed a scholorship/endowment fund in your name... it's called "The Noah Awards"- it's a great idea and it makes all of us happy to know that there is a permanant thing put in place as a sort of memorial for you- that also helps others!!
Then.. on sunday, SickKids has a NICU remembrance service for the families whose babies died at SickKids over the past year.

Mummy and Daddy might put our Christmas tree up this weekend.. I am kind of looking forward to putting all the special ornaments that remind me of you on the tree.
christmas won't be the same this year though not without you here.. when you ere supposed to be.

Also, Mummy and Daddy are one step closer to making you a big brother... we have to get help to do it though, unfortunatly ... but we're getting there.. hopefully soon I will be able to announce it to you! that you will be a big brother!!!! ,.. but not yet.. slowly but surely.

Well.. we love you Noah.. we love you so much. you are the best thing that ever happened to your daddy and I.