**Disclaimer** If you know me in my 'real' life and stumble across this blog- please know that I write here for healing, and to feel close to my Noah, and close to my grief. At times these letters may seem sad, angry, and at times, crazy. Please don't worry about me- this is how I help myself heal. If you have questions, just ask- if you know me well at all, you know that I love talking about my Noah.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Love you

Hi Monkey..
I Love you so much. I wish I could give you a big sqeeze, and a kiss on your little nose. I didn't get many cuddles from you, but boy, do I miss them! There's nothing like a Noah cuddle snuggle!

Mummy and Daddy are doing ok. We are busy with work, and Mummy has been at the clinic a lot latly.
We miss you so much... sometimes in the night, I think.. how did I do it... how did I get through that day without my Noah? How did I walk around, acting 'normal' and being productive? I didn't ever think i'd be able to.. I guess I can.. but it's so hard. Just a regular day takes so much more out of me than they used to.

Oh boy... life is tough without you my sweet, sweet boy.
I love you forever,

Monday, January 19, 2009

Big time

Hi Noah... It's a big time in the world right now! We don't even live there, but our whole country is buzzing because of the new President of the USA. It's amazing that in mummy's life time this change will happen.. I hope it is a possitive change for America, and the world.
I wish you were here with us.

Mummy has been taking drugs latly, and they've made me feel a little sleepy, and grumpy. Poor Daddy has to put up with me!
We're trying to see if these drugs will make us be able to give you a little sibling.. we'll have to wait and see if all of t his stuff works.

I've missed you a lot these past few weeks. I remember last year this time, You were geting to big in my belly... I loved it! I loved being pregnant. I'm so glad I cherished that time with you. So glad.

Mummy and Daddy are going to get something to eat.
We love you soo, soooo, sooooooo much!


Monday, January 12, 2009


MUAH.. Big kisses for you!
I love you Noah.


Tuesday, January 6, 2009

New year

Happy New Year baby boy... I love you!

Were there fireworks in heaven?

Well.. Mummy has to write lots and lots and lots of report cards now.. so I can't write long.. just letting you know that I love you, and even though life is very busy..... you are always on my mind.

Love you forever