**Disclaimer** If you know me in my 'real' life and stumble across this blog- please know that I write here for healing, and to feel close to my Noah, and close to my grief. At times these letters may seem sad, angry, and at times, crazy. Please don't worry about me- this is how I help myself heal. If you have questions, just ask- if you know me well at all, you know that I love talking about my Noah.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Love you

Hi Monkey..
I Love you so much. I wish I could give you a big sqeeze, and a kiss on your little nose. I didn't get many cuddles from you, but boy, do I miss them! There's nothing like a Noah cuddle snuggle!

Mummy and Daddy are doing ok. We are busy with work, and Mummy has been at the clinic a lot latly.
We miss you so much... sometimes in the night, I think.. how did I do it... how did I get through that day without my Noah? How did I walk around, acting 'normal' and being productive? I didn't ever think i'd be able to.. I guess I can.. but it's so hard. Just a regular day takes so much more out of me than they used to.

Oh boy... life is tough without you my sweet, sweet boy.
I love you forever,


Anonymous said...

i have tears in my eyes to think how precious every second is be strong and take care