I was thinking while I was driving today that you've taught me a lot- mostly indirectly- but many of these things, because of you, I have learned- or I have at least realized throughout the past 29 months.
You've taught me:
-how precious and fragile life can be.
-to be easier on myself
-that what other people think doesn't really matter
-that some friends really weren't friends
-that no matter how hard I try, I'm not in control my life, or anyone elses.
-that your Daddy is the best Daddy to you and your sister
-that love is a precious thing, that should be cherished.
-that stuff isn't as important as people, feelings and time
-that the little interruptions and disappointments in life don't matter much
-that everyone has a tragedy in their life, if we'd only stop to listen, or ask
-that generally, people aren't good listeners
-that being a Mummy to a baby who isn't here is really tough.. but,
-that being a Mummy is the most wonderful thing in the world- baby here or not.
-that the sun rises and sets each day, no matter what we do
-to make the best out of my life
-that places aren't where you are- instead you are everywhere and everything
-that children are worth living for
-that memories are worth a lot
-family matters and I depend on them probably more than I should
There's so much more, You've taught me a little about everything. Everything I do is shaped because of you- your life, your death.
I love you baby boy. Love Love Love
Love you forever,