**Disclaimer** If you know me in my 'real' life and stumble across this blog- please know that I write here for healing, and to feel close to my Noah, and close to my grief. At times these letters may seem sad, angry, and at times, crazy. Please don't worry about me- this is how I help myself heal. If you have questions, just ask- if you know me well at all, you know that I love talking about my Noah.

Thursday, March 5, 2009


Hi Baby Boy,
I can't beleive it is already March. In many ways this past 11 months has gone by so fast, in other ways it has gone by so slow. Depends on how I think about ti I guess.

This past few weeks have been extra hard. It's coming up to your 1st birthday, and I just don't know what to do with myself.. I want to be having a party- but I want YOU to be there.. not just a bunch of people who feel sorry for me. But I know that's impossible.

I wonder if anyone will remember your birthday? Anyone but me and your daddy, and probably your grandparents. I wish I could expect everyone too.. but I can't.

I love you Noah. as i see and smell the spring arrive, I think of you.. and things we should be doing to celebrate this time of year.
I hope it's warmer in heaven than it has been ehre the past few days
I love you to the moon and back



Krista said...

I suspect more people remembered than you think: Wade and I did.