Love

HI Munchkin-Noodle!
This past few weeks I've missed you lots. I miss you always- but the past few weeks I have been extra missing you- I think it's probably because I've been off work, and have been a little extra worried about your brother or sister. I guess it's only natural to be worried about him or her.
It all feels so surreal- you were here, but now gone, it's been just about 14 months, I'm pregnant and got through the first trimester... this will probably be the very best, and very worst 2 years in my life, and daddy's too.

We had a yard sale yesterday- it was pretty good! Daddy loves yard sales- mostly because he gets to go around and look at everyone elses junk too! Your Daddy is great. and this time.. he actually didn't buy a thing- which is amazing!

Daddy and I are going to go get groceries now, so we can eat dinner!
I love you Noah- thanks for looking down on us, I hope you are proud of us.
Love you forever,
Mummy

Pictures

Hi Noah- It's been a long time since we were there, but daddy and I, and Grammie and Grammpie went to Niagara falls during the winter. We saw a beautiful rainbow, and I've been meaning to show you.

Love you

Mummy

Hi Munchkin

Hi Munchin-Monkey,

Mummy is very bored today. She has to be home so that she doesn't get your brother or sister sick from a little illness that is happening at her work.

I think in a few minutes I am going to get some flowers for your garden, and for the front gardens! I usually do that with daddy, but he is so busy at work because it is the Friday before a long weekend. Are there flowers in heaven baby boy? I hope so, I think you'd love them!

Love you forever and ever and ever,
Mummy

Mother's Day?

Hi Monkey,

Today is Mother's Day... The second one since I've known and loved you.
I know you consider me a Mother- which makes me so happy- I just wish you were here, so you and daddy could do regular Mother's day stuff with me. It's such an awkward day now that you're gone, and not many know I am pregnant with your little sibling.
Not many people acknowledge that I'm a mother anymore- I think most try to avoid the subject altogether. I know they don't try to hurt me- they just don't know what to say- noone knows what to say-- not even daddy sometimes.

Please know that I am your Mummy.. and I love you just as much as I will love the rest of my children. Everyday- whether Mother's day or not- I think of you, I wish for you, I need you. This will never change.
Thank you for making me a Mummy. Whether anyone else cares/knows/acknowledges it or not- We will always have that- Just us- you're my first baby- and you made me a mother. Thank you!
I love you forever,
Mummy

miss you

I miss you so much right now... it's amazing how these feelings can come flooding back in a heartbeat... I want you here, with me.
Love you forever,
Mummy

oops!

Hi Munchkin!
Just like when i was pregnant with you- I now have pregnancy brain again!
I told you Cole and Breanna's birthday was Saturday and Sunday- but I was wrong, it was Sunday and Monday!!!! Apparently Mummy can't read a calendar! hahaha

I'm sure you knew that, and were just letting me be wrong :)

Love you- Hope you party in heaven with all your friends was fun! sorry I missed it.

Love you forever,
Mummy

May

Well Munchkin, today is May 1st.
The beginning of another month without you.
I used to love the beginning of new months.. but now, thye hurt a little.

Tomorrow and Sunday it is Cole and Breanna's birthdays. Have a big party for them in heaven ok?? There mummy and daddy would like that!

Just writing to say I love you, although I hope you know that!

Love you forever,
Mummy