**Disclaimer** If you know me in my 'real' life and stumble across this blog- please know that I write here for healing, and to feel close to my Noah, and close to my grief. At times these letters may seem sad, angry, and at times, crazy. Please don't worry about me- this is how I help myself heal. If you have questions, just ask- if you know me well at all, you know that I love talking about my Noah.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Do you see her?

Hello Noah Bear,

4 sleeps until your new baby sister is born. Are you excited? Do you already know what she looks like? How big she'll be? I bet you do! Mummy is excited to find out all that stuff, and excited to know that she is safe.
Do you know if she will be safe?

Mummy doesn't have a lot to do in the next few days- Gramma is here, and she is making Mummy lots of stuff for her freezer, just like she did before you were born.  I do hope the next 4 days go fast. Mummy is finding it hard to sleep- I've been waking up in the middle of the night and having a bath- just to change positions. You used to love when Mummy took baths! Do you remember?

I love you Noah. I have no idea what life will bring after your sister is born, so I have no idea how much I will write to you- maybe more, maybe less, maybe the same amount. Either way, I know you know even when I don't write to you- every second I am thinking of you.

I love you forever,


Jill said...

Such a sweet post!

Sarah said...

Ah Jane- you are in my thoughts in these final days of your pregnancy.

You are close to my heart at this time.

Akul's mama said...

You have such a connection with your Noah. Even if you don't write here, you both will communicate.

Beth said...

i had a very sweet patient the other day.. she was only 6 days apart from kathlyn, so i ended up telling her mommy about my story. she was SUCH a sweet lady. she was my patient for 2 days so we talked a lot. i was saying how i will get pregnant again soon. and at one point she said "you know they are together." and at first i thought she meant katie and my dad. and i must have looked puzzled for her to elaborate. so she said "katie and her future sibling.. they are together, their souls." that was so sweet. so yes, i bet noah and charlotte already know each other. how sweet!

please baby Noah, let Mummy know that your baby sissy Charlotte is safe!