**Disclaimer** If you know me in my 'real' life and stumble across this blog- please know that I write here for healing, and to feel close to my Noah, and close to my grief. At times these letters may seem sad, angry, and at times, crazy. Please don't worry about me- this is how I help myself heal. If you have questions, just ask- if you know me well at all, you know that I love talking about my Noah.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

I miss you when......

I miss you lots today my baby bear.... I miss the 4 person family that I will never get to have all together....

I miss  you when I'm happy
I miss you when I'm sad
I miss you when I see your sister cry
I miss you when I see your sister smile
I miss you when I dress you sister in sleepers meant for you
I miss you when I kiss her goodnight
I miss you when she is bathed in your tub
I miss you when daddy kisses her
I miss you when daddy kisses me
I miss you when we go on family walks
I miss you when we play RockBand and Charlotte laughs
I miss you when I see your picture, which happen to be everywhere!
I miss you when I see a froggie
I miss you when I see a g-raf
I miss you at church
I miss you when I go to sleep
I miss you when I sing to your sister
I miss you when I read to your sister
I miss you when I'm taking pictures
I miss you when I go to stores that have things for little boys

I miss you always..... nothing is 'right' without you
Love you forever,
Mummy

2 comments:

Beth said...

that's right. nothing is right.

Akul's mama said...

Yes mom you miss your baby boy for no one can take Noah's place in your life.