**Disclaimer** If you know me in my 'real' life and stumble across this blog- please know that I write here for healing, and to feel close to my Noah, and close to my grief. At times these letters may seem sad, angry, and at times, crazy. Please don't worry about me- this is how I help myself heal. If you have questions, just ask- if you know me well at all, you know that I love talking about my Noah.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009


Hi Baby boy-

I hope wherever you are- you are told how beautiful you are.
I was thinking about that last night... it's so sad how many people didn't get to see your beauty, your handsomness, your absolute purity and innocence that pictures just can't grasp. The life that was in you in your short life was more than some adults have in their long number of years- you were full of life, full of wonder, full of beauty- your eyes were big- as if you knew you had to open them wide to see all you could see before you were gone.... such a beauty
I was one of the lucky few to see such beauty.
Just thought I'd let you know...
I love you forever,


Hope's Mama said...

Hi Jane
I wish more got to see his beauty, too. I'm glad I get to see it in his pictures and through his words, even if neither will ever do him justice. He's such a well loved little boy and he's lucky to have you as his mummy.

Mirne said...

Oh yes, just looking at his photo I can see how absolutely gorgeous he is. Every time I see his photo I think what a beautiful baby boy.

Inanna said...

He truly is a beautiful little man. You were blessed to have him, to hold him. Sometimes I feel strange, being so proud of William, how gorgeous he was... and my midwife said, the moment he arrived, "He's so beautiful!" And he was. Still, lifeless, but gorgeous. Just stunning. *sigh*

Akul's mama said...

I see his beauty. He is truely gorgeous. Your comment about his wide eyed look reminds me of Akul round curious eyes. When he was born he opened his beautiful eyes and looked around like he is taking in everything he sees.