**Disclaimer** If you know me in my 'real' life and stumble across this blog- please know that I write here for healing, and to feel close to my Noah, and close to my grief. At times these letters may seem sad, angry, and at times, crazy. Please don't worry about me- this is how I help myself heal. If you have questions, just ask- if you know me well at all, you know that I love talking about my Noah.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Hi Monkey,

Well sweet darling boy, Daddy and I are going away for a little while. We have booked a cottage up North where I don't think there will be any internet service, and even if there is- I need a break.
I know I don't write religiously every week anyway- but, just in case you miss me, you know where I am.

Daddy and I plan to relax, go in the canoe, sit by the fire, cuddle lots- all these things we would have done with you this year too.. you would fit in a life jacket by now, and could go out canoeing with Daddy and I and your puppy Casey. I wish you were here..... I wish Daddy had gotten the chance to teach you about fires, and canoeing. He loves you so much.

We;ll be back next week. Don't forget how much we love and miss you my sweet, sweet boy. You are so loved- and although all I have are pictures and memories-- I love you more each day-- even without seeing your growing, beautiful, happy face that you would have right now if you were with me.. more each day.

I love you forever,


Krista said...

Janey ... you can talk to him wherever you are. You don't need internet access for that! :)

Have a great trip! And Happy Anniversary!

Akul's mama said...

I write letters to Akul too, though I stopped doing that when I started writing this blog. I always feel that Akul will sneak in and read all my letters, but I know he reads my heart, my eyes and my tears every day. Noah knows he is so loved. I am sure his spirit surrounds you and will go with you wherever you go. How can he not when he is loved so much?

Mirne said...

Have a wonderful time ... it sounds like a beautiful place. :-)