**Disclaimer** If you know me in my 'real' life and stumble across this blog- please know that I write here for healing, and to feel close to my Noah, and close to my grief. At times these letters may seem sad, angry, and at times, crazy. Please don't worry about me- this is how I help myself heal. If you have questions, just ask- if you know me well at all, you know that I love talking about my Noah.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Happy Birthday Noah

Happy Birthday baby boy!!

Mummy and Daddy love you so much. I hope you know that, even if we can't tell you to your face everyday.
This year has been so hard-- so empty-- so lonely. But, today I choose to remember April 6th 2008- the very best day of my life- they day that you were born- and we were told that you were a perfectly healthy little boy. The day that I became a Mummy, and Daddy became a Daddy.
We love you Noah- I hope you know that.
I wish I could hug and kiss and snuggle you, especially today.

We put a birthday balloon by your tree, and by your stone.. hope you like them! I wish we were getting you fun toys, and big balloons and a yummy cake.. I wish you were here so it would feel more like a celebration.. I wish I knew what you would look like today, and what you'd be doing..
I wish, I wish, I wish.

I love you to the moon and back.


Keri said...

I am praying for you and your family.

Sheryl said...

I think about you, Matt and Noah every day and that will never change!! I am sure he had a wonderful birthday in heaven enjoying all the hugs and kisses from everyone here remembering him!