Hello

Hi Monkey,

Today was my first day back at work full-time. It was an easy day- because there were no kids.. just me in the classroom cleaning up and organizing.

I miss you so much. I wish so much that you were here. I see famillies with strollers and babies, and pregnant bellies.. and it makes me need you even more- why do they get to have their children, and I don't get to have you?? Sometimes I see people yelling and their kids, or putting their kids in messy messy dirty cars, or feeding them pop... it makes me so sad- that they can have their kids and I can't have you. Life isn't fair is it. You didn't even get a chance.


Somedays I just don't know what to do.. I wish I could be with you, or you could be with me. I wish I could turn back time.
I just need to cuddle you and look into your beautiful eyes.
I need you to know that I love you so much Noah. I've never loved anything like I love you. Nothing will ever be the same.
I want April 7th back.
I wouldn't ever let you go.

I love you
I love you
I love you
I'm so sorry this happened to you.
Love,
Mummy